Bear with me my post is gonna be long..

Been MIA kinda of long, blogging is a tiring chores to me as u need to think abt what u gonna type and cannot be too boring. I am super tired for the passed 2 weeks, i not sure whether isit my slp is not enough or too stress?

I got into IWSS(Integrated Web Solution System) in layman term, is Programming, language like java, c++, VB will be throw at my face, Holy shit and worse need to study for open source like Linux and come out with programs using tat. I must admit i am not cut out for programmer and i just wish to get out of poly life tats all.

Next, I am bothered whether i should sign on to army anot, ask for their sponsorship towards my sch fees and their allowance, seriously i am tempted by the 1k allowance per month by doing nth u get 1k. However, i still need to consider alot of factors b4 i make this decision. Buddies in the army ask me not to sign on due to their "no life" and "no freedom" in there. they suggest to me, ask me to go NS and try BMT first then see wanna sign anot. Parents ask me to check and research first b4 doing that.
I think i am longer bothered by the sign on thing because i got a chat with Lionel just now who is a NS army personnel and he sign on also. I asked about his view and realize that sign on meaning cutting urself out of the world, remove u from freedom but u are damn rich at the end of the day. LOlx Give me alot of money but deprive me from having more time with my family and debbie is a torture man...

Next, I going to quit my job at Isurf next month because CNY is coming and Sch Exam are behind CNY so close till they are fuking each other. Every year is like this, there are no festive mood due to this, damn poly. I do not wish to continue due to i have no time to commit myself as projects and exams are waiting for me might as well end the misery.

Hmm..after next month, officially jobless and no Sign on activity meaning i will be back to a super duper broke guy, bear with me debbie...things might have change but my love to u will not change.

We talk about her ex ytd, the issue was he still got sms her abt once a week and ask her to go attend his POP ceremony all this but debbie reply is not free and also no. Cast away my personal feeling and i feel that although break up can still be friend but at least he must know whether he still got feeling for her or really is pure friend, the ans only he himself know. Although i am not afraid that debbie will go back to him or what because i dun regard him as a threat because i am way too good compare to him *pardon my arrogant claims* only debbie she know herself lolx. I think he will still carry that "hope" maybe he still got chance or have a place in her heart, my way of doing and belief is having a clear cut always cause the minimum damage because i got a living example, that is why i am concerned about this issue. The line need to be drawn clear and stand firm...will be my understatement.

Guess too many days nvr blog tats why kinda of long...